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[angels_facade]

Augh. I am so emo mummy right now. I got to hold my babies last night. I got to hold them! I totally wept, Dude. And then I had to leave them again and I cried even more. I bawled in the carpark. I think I disturbed Spectre. Leaving them was even harder after I'd had them in my arms. And then last night I had this terrifying nightmare that they were taken from me. And then I woke up and felt my belly and the babies weren't there and I was screaming. I was barely awake and not at all coherent so when I saw Thomas, I hit him and screamed at him for 'stealing my babies'. Luckily Thomas just looked cutely confused which made me realise that he hadn't stolen them and they were safe in the hospital and I HATE THIS.

I went back today to see if they could breastfeed, but so far it seems like they're still too weak to do that. I can try again tomorrow. It's frustrating. And I'm making Thomas go with me everywhere. I'm Barnacle!Kat. And tomorrow's my birthday and I don't even care. I want my damn babies, Goatfuckers!

They yawned and squirmed around and dear GOD they're perfect.

Comments

[breaks-the-fall.livejournal.com]

I hate it too. A lot.

But you're amazing with them, Kat. You really are.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Ethanface. So are you. You do that babytalk thing, which is hilarious.

[breaks-the-fall.livejournal.com]

That is because they are my widdle baby girls!

[juniper-berries.livejournal.com]

Oh honey, you got to hold them? Awww.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

But then I had to LEAVE them!

[juniper-berries.livejournal.com]

Nooo. *big pouts* When are you going to be visiting them again? Can I come?

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Only if you want to see my boobs.

[deirdre-ionuin.livejournal.com]

I'LL COME!!

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Ahahhahaa yeah I bet you would!

[juniper-berries.livejournal.com]

Well, I certainly don't mind if you don't. *smiles* I won't stare, promise. I would just like to see you and the girls, boobs and all. :)

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Oh I don't give a shit! You can come with D Ro and me tomorrow if you want. I don't know if they'll be letting other people hold them if I'm trying to nurse them though. It depends on how long they can be out of the incubators. But it's worth a shot!

It'll be my birthday anyway!

[appearstobe.livejournal.com]

They'll be home soon, and then you can hold them for ever :) Please be happy, Kat, it's your birthday tomorrow!

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Well I can hold them until they get all huge. I just miss them and it sucks. I feel like I'm not doing my job as a mother.

[twilightrobe.livejournal.com]

i reckon bein' in your arms will make 'em stronger every day. that's what you're there for, darlin'. you'll take care of those kids, and they'll grow into the strongest girls in the world. it's gonna be awesome watching them grow up.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

It really is! You should have seen them in Thomas's arms! He's all huge and the girls are so tiny. They are smaller than his forearms!! I'm really excited. I feel like a mother, but I hate when that feeling gets taken away from me.

[twilightrobe.livejournal.com]

yeah, that woulda been a sight to see! and i don't doubt it's one that'll be seen again. it's great to see you this excited. i hate that the babies get taken away from you too, i know they're never happier than when they're with their mum and dad. but you've been great spending time with them, and i'm dead set sure they know how much they're loved.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

You say all the best things, Tammface!! I never thought I'd be this excited. Well obviously. But I just love them. More than anything.

[twilightrobe.livejournal.com]

i do my best, darlin'. i think it's pretty clear to everyone how supreme your love it. it rocks, babe.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Yeah and you're the reason I can have it. So :X

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Babies! They're so beautiful. It was such a privilege and an honour to be able to hold Bianca. She's just... every gorgeous and fantastic and wonderful word I could think of. And so are you. I've never seen so much love as was in that room last night. It was as perfect an experience as I've ever lived.

Oh, and you didn't disturb me, darling. I completely understand. I didn't want to leave them behind either, and I'm not even related to them.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad!! It was for me too, even if I was bawling the entire time.

Good to know. And yes you are related to them. You are Uncle Spectre. Don't argue!

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Oh, I wouldn't dream of arguing with an honour like that! Uncle Spectre it is!

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Yay that means you have to get them presents!!

That was me joking, by the way ;)

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

As if you could ever stop me!

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

The catfight I'm imagining in my head is very funny!

Oh and Thomas is all excited now! Not because of fighting...