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Augh. I am so emo mummy right now. I got to hold my babies last night. I got to hold them! I totally wept, Dude. And then I had to leave them again and I cried even more. I bawled in the carpark. I think I disturbed Spectre. Leaving them was even harder after I'd had them in my arms. And then last night I had this terrifying nightmare that they were taken from me. And then I woke up and felt my belly and the babies weren't there and I was screaming. I was barely awake and not at all coherent so when I saw Thomas, I hit him and screamed at him for 'stealing my babies'. Luckily Thomas just looked cutely confused which made me realise that he hadn't stolen them and they were safe in the hospital and I HATE THIS.

I went back today to see if they could breastfeed, but so far it seems like they're still too weak to do that. I can try again tomorrow. It's frustrating. And I'm making Thomas go with me everywhere. I'm Barnacle!Kat. And tomorrow's my birthday and I don't even care. I want my damn babies, Goatfuckers!

They yawned and squirmed around and dear GOD they're perfect.