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[angels_facade]

Augh. I am so emo mummy right now. I got to hold my babies last night. I got to hold them! I totally wept, Dude. And then I had to leave them again and I cried even more. I bawled in the carpark. I think I disturbed Spectre. Leaving them was even harder after I'd had them in my arms. And then last night I had this terrifying nightmare that they were taken from me. And then I woke up and felt my belly and the babies weren't there and I was screaming. I was barely awake and not at all coherent so when I saw Thomas, I hit him and screamed at him for 'stealing my babies'. Luckily Thomas just looked cutely confused which made me realise that he hadn't stolen them and they were safe in the hospital and I HATE THIS.

I went back today to see if they could breastfeed, but so far it seems like they're still too weak to do that. I can try again tomorrow. It's frustrating. And I'm making Thomas go with me everywhere. I'm Barnacle!Kat. And tomorrow's my birthday and I don't even care. I want my damn babies, Goatfuckers!

They yawned and squirmed around and dear GOD they're perfect.

Comments

[breaks-the-fall.livejournal.com]

I hate it too. A lot.

But you're amazing with them, Kat. You really are.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Ethanface. So are you. You do that babytalk thing, which is hilarious.

[juniper-berries.livejournal.com]

Oh honey, you got to hold them? Awww.

[appearstobe.livejournal.com]

They'll be home soon, and then you can hold them for ever :) Please be happy, Kat, it's your birthday tomorrow!

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

But then I had to LEAVE them!

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Well I can hold them until they get all huge. I just miss them and it sucks. I feel like I'm not doing my job as a mother.

[juniper-berries.livejournal.com]

Nooo. *big pouts* When are you going to be visiting them again? Can I come?

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Only if you want to see my boobs.

[deirdre-ionuin.livejournal.com]

I'LL COME!!

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Ahahhahaa yeah I bet you would!

[breaks-the-fall.livejournal.com]

That is because they are my widdle baby girls!

[deirdre-ionuin.livejournal.com]

I'll show you my boobs too so we're even!

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Excellent thinking, D Ro! I am most pleased with this arrangement.

Do you want to hold the girls?

[deirdre-ionuin.livejournal.com]

Oh GOD no, I'll break them! I'll just look at their cute little baby faces and go "awwwwwwwwwwwwww".

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

You will not break them! And if you do I'll have to kill you.

[deirdre-ionuin.livejournal.com]

Yep. Awwwwwwing it is!

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

*snort* Fair enough!

[juniper-berries.livejournal.com]

Well, I certainly don't mind if you don't. *smiles* I won't stare, promise. I would just like to see you and the girls, boobs and all. :)

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Oh I don't give a shit! You can come with D Ro and me tomorrow if you want. I don't know if they'll be letting other people hold them if I'm trying to nurse them though. It depends on how long they can be out of the incubators. But it's worth a shot!

It'll be my birthday anyway!

[juniper-berries.livejournal.com]

D Ro? *grins* Okay then, that's fine, I don't have to hold them, I would be just happy to see them. And I want to see you on your birthday too!!

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I always call her D Ro. Deirdre Rose. And you'd better!

[seminalsemiotic.livejournal.com]

If there's going to be baby watching and gratuitous breast flashing, I'd like to come along too. But I won't be offended if there are too many people, I can come along some other time *smiles* I'm so glad you got to hold them, Kat, if only for a little while. I'm sure it was really good for the girls. It won't be long now, darling *hugs*

[twilightrobe.livejournal.com]

i reckon bein' in your arms will make 'em stronger every day. that's what you're there for, darlin'. you'll take care of those kids, and they'll grow into the strongest girls in the world. it's gonna be awesome watching them grow up.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I hope it was good for them!

And by all means, come along! It's not crowded! No one can go in there without Ethan or I, but they don't care how many people come if they're all with us! As long as you're not sneezy anyway. Glenda totally bitched out a guy yesterday for sniffling...

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Babies! They're so beautiful. It was such a privilege and an honour to be able to hold Bianca. She's just... every gorgeous and fantastic and wonderful word I could think of. And so are you. I've never seen so much love as was in that room last night. It was as perfect an experience as I've ever lived.

Oh, and you didn't disturb me, darling. I completely understand. I didn't want to leave them behind either, and I'm not even related to them.