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[angels_facade]

I just had a miscarriage and I didn't even know I was pregnant. I wasn't going to say anything, but I can't just...augh. I'm in RMMH just in case. I'm really upset. I don't want to do anything stupid. Here is safe. I'm safe from me. Just in case. Witness my fucking growth, bitches.

Thing is, I don't even know who's baby it was because...god, I've been with about four or five guys over the past few months and they said the baby was about two months along.

Two months and I had no idea. I had another person with me for two months and now they're just gone.

Fuck.

I can't keep doing this. Sleeping around to numb pain. I made a human. Another one. And then killed them. God, I am so fucking worthless.

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[bringthefire.livejournal.com]

Oh god. I'm so sorry, Kat.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry too.

[dont-jinx-it.livejournal.com]

You didn't kill them. Miscarrying is not your fault, Kat. It's just an evil fucking act from mother nature.

I'm glad you're at the hospital though, darlin. I'll come visit.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

If I had known, I never would have kept drinking, clubbing and dancing at Lugosi's. I love kids. Another one...I wouldn't have minded. I mean, I would have had to postpone my study again and whatever but...fuck, I would have done it.

It could have been yours, you realise? Do you still not blame me?

[dont-jinx-it.livejournal.com]

Not even a little bit, Kat. There's no possible way you could have known and you're a wonderful person. You know I love kids and if this one was mine too then I still don't blame you at all. I'm worried about you, but I'm glad you're safe where you are. You're the most important part of this for me.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I'll be alright. I don't want to die. I made sure I was in the one place that could never happen.

[createthemess.livejournal.com]

I love you, Kat. You are, and always will be, anything but worthless.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I love you too, Daria. Thank you.

[caughtinafold.livejournal.com]

My darling, you're never worthless. We all love you very much. I hope you'll be okay.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I'll be alright. I love you too, Carla.

[father-peter.livejournal.com]

If you want to talk to someone who understands...

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I do. Tomorrow. Thank you, Peter.