What if you don't hide behind being cute, and don't you dare ever lie to my husband about something I did ever again or there won't be any thinking about it?
I have grown so much since then. I've gotten married. Become a father. Been through...utter torment and extreme bliss. I've lived and died since those photos. It strange to look back on them.
And that was after I told him the Patrick Swayze dance from Dirty Dancing was the hottest thing ever so he proceeded to learn it just by watching the movie and then he performed it flawlessly while teaching it to me. Minus the...holding me up in the air thing. I was pregnant at the time.
I'll be perfectly honest with you, because you deserve that, now that you're being honest with us. You've severely shaken my trust in you, and not for the first time. Like Thomas, that's going to take time to heal. But I'm willing to let it heal, because I understand the big picture. This all started with something indescribably awful. It's not an excuse, but it's something I can understand.
I'm glad things are out in the open now. And that you're letting Mums help you. Those are really good things.
And yes, I do indeed like the picture. It's good to look back, and see Thomas in more carefree days. More carefree for all of us, in a lot of ways; though some cares too have been alleviated, since then.
It means a beginning. The proof will be in keeping the promise, and that's what will have meaning. As with so many things, we can only take it one day at a time. But at the end of the day, it'll be one down. Then we can work on the next.
Thank you. For thinking of me, even though you didn't involve me in it.
I'm glad Lavinia was there to help you, but I think it's going to take more than that to get you through - even if she is a goddess among women. What are you planning on doing for help? Because you do need it, sweetie. Anyone in your situation would.
One of the most dreadful things about this, is that it seems that the doing is, for now, in the hands of others. I know that those who know the system are doing their very best, though. For you and for Theo.
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Date: 2009-10-17 09:00 am (UTC)That wasn't a threat, though it sounds like one. It was actually a promise. I mean it.
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Date: 2009-10-17 09:20 am (UTC)Remember that?
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Date: 2009-10-17 09:20 am (UTC)Wow. I just...had no idea, did I?
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Date: 2009-10-17 09:22 am (UTC)I have grown so much since then. I've gotten married. Become a father. Been through...utter torment and extreme bliss. I've lived and died since those photos. It strange to look back on them.
I can still move like that though.
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Date: 2009-10-18 09:53 am (UTC)I'll be perfectly honest with you, because you deserve that, now that you're being honest with us. You've severely shaken my trust in you, and not for the first time. Like Thomas, that's going to take time to heal. But I'm willing to let it heal, because I understand the big picture. This all started with something indescribably awful. It's not an excuse, but it's something I can understand.
I'm glad things are out in the open now. And that you're letting Mums help you. Those are really good things.
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Date: 2009-10-18 09:54 am (UTC)I'm so sorry.
Do you at least like the picture?
http://pics.livejournal.com/angels_facade/pic/0003w8b9
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Date: 2009-10-18 11:21 am (UTC)And yes, I do indeed like the picture. It's good to look back, and see Thomas in more carefree days. More carefree for all of us, in a lot of ways; though some cares too have been alleviated, since then.
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Date: 2009-10-18 11:26 am (UTC)I promise I won't fuck anything up for you anymore. I don't know how much that means to you right now, but I won't.
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Date: 2009-10-18 09:56 am (UTC)I'm glad Lavinia was there to help you, but I think it's going to take more than that to get you through - even if she is a goddess among women. What are you planning on doing for help? Because you do need it, sweetie. Anyone in your situation would.
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Date: 2009-10-18 09:57 am (UTC)I know. I think it's back to hospital. They already took my baby away, what harm could it do now?
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Date: 2009-10-18 11:23 am (UTC)I am really sorry they took your baby. That was just awful, to say the least.
I am glad Kali and Ethan will be there for Zoe and Bianca while you get the help you need. You're doing the right thing, Kat. You really are.
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Date: 2009-10-18 11:27 am (UTC)It was. I still don't...I don't know what to do.
Thanks.
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